i don't know, i just- i do love music, a whole hell of a lot, and i can't say that if given the opportunity i wouldn't have made the exact same choices. piano and violin were a huge shaping force in my life, for one thing, and i did manage to avoid a lot of the catty drama that the Chinese school kids were involved in. still, i feel like i should have made more of an effort to learn Chinese while i was still little and didn't have other responsibilities and demands on my time. :\